Memories from: Taiwan and L.A.
Four weeks ago I finally admitted to myself that I am unhappy in my new university. Los Angeles is great - lots of places to see, things to do, etc. But what I've learned from before and what I'm reiterating now is that the people you're with is what makes a place feel like home. Although I'm thankful for some of the friends I've made here in CSUN, it still doesn't feel like home, and until it feels like home, I won't find permanent happiness. However, what I'm most thankful for ever since I came here are my high school and elementary friends. I'd be so miserable without them. Tonight, one of my best friends and my classmate from high school came to visit me. They arrived at 9:37pm and left at like 1:30am; it was just the most wonderful thing. We hung out in Starbucks and walked around campus. The weather was nice and chilly and campus looked great at night, especially since there weren't people around. For the first time since I got here, I felt safe and more at home. Like there was hope for the human race again haha. It's so interesting to see how we've all grown individually and goal-wise, but at the same time, still stayed similar character-wise. I guess that's the thing with growing up with each other, being apart for a while, then catching up and picking things up where they left off. We're almost not the same people we were in high school, but we're still us.
What I'm trying to get at is, even if I'm unhappy here, wondering what I did wrong in life to deserve this state of loneliness, I guess I really must've done something right somewhere along the way to have made such great friends from Taiwan and Elon that appear in my life when I need them the most. I hope one day I can do the same for friends who need me. I'm so glad the two of them came. It really lifted my spirits.
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